Tout mais pas l'indifférence

I wish I could let it go as everyone is asking me to. I wish I could forget and forgive because in the end it was nothing more than another guy showing a lack of respect to a woman. I wish I could suppress my anger an just be ok with it. But I can't. It's one too many now.
How is it fair that I'm the one who feels diminished, who feels less than human when he's the one acting like a fucking animal ? It's enough now. Litterally, I'm sick of this all, I'm sick of men thinking with their dicks, saying that it's "ok", that anyway "they asked for it". How could I be standing there alone, standing up for my friends when everybody else was just telling me to calm down, that it was nothing, that he was just drunk. How can it be ok to disrespect so blatantly someone's intergrity and dignity and just get away with it ?

"Aung San Suu Kyi:

Fear is not the natural state of civilized people."

So why can't I go out on my own ? And this I also mean in France. Why can't I go back home from Uni without checking that there is no creep following me to my house to try to trap me and touch me in my own building ? Why can't I wear a skirt without being  verbally assaulted by men who think they're in their right ? Why can't I go to a party and just have fun without guys feeling me up like I'm a piece of meat ? Why can't I go to the mall with my friends without being followed by a herd of horny guys who think that being white means being a slut ? Why am I the one who should calm down and go with it as they get away with their dirty hands and a clear conscience ? Can I get an answer for all this ? I'm not even asking this as a woman, although I'll keep fighting for women's rights as long as I live, I'm asking this as a human being. Isn't there a part in the Universal Declaration of Human Rights about dignity ? Should I really be fighting for something that was given to me already ? Or maybe this applies only to men as in France (and not in Quebec so that's not just a linguistic thing), we still talk about "Droits de l'Homme" ?

Can anyone give me an answer before I just go postal ? I swear it's getting harder to believe in the good nature of humans, especially men, when you know that one woman out of four will be physically/sexually assaulted in our world. And that having to go through a little thing once doesn't not protect you from going through worse, because a rapist will never ask you if you're already one of the four. When can we stop living in fear ? When can I stop living in anger ? When can I feel that I have the same rights as a human ?

I need answers badly...